Yearly Archives: 2014

Unraveling Sexual Energies

 

It seems that sometimes our bodies have urges or desires that are linked to hormones and biology. The urge/desire to have children and have sex are two such areas that I’m particularly interested in exploring in the blog post.

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Who knows why, but I’d always just wanted one child. There I was, a mother of one child. However, once or twice a year, after the initial sleep deprived years started to subside, I would find myself overcome with thoughts, images, and sensations that seemed to tell me that it was time to have another child. In those moments I experienced dissonance- on the one hand I only wanted one child (and felt particularly strong about it), and on the other hand I felt the desire to have another. Instead of brushing aside the desire to have another, or the want to just have one child, I explored this territory. I didn’t want to bypass this dissonance, this pull to have another child. I wanted to see what was there. Maybe I did really want more children, but was afraid, for example. So each time the urge would arise, I’d fully engage in the exploration. I’d feel it fully in my body- embody having another. About three days later, I’d come out of my exploration- and the desire would be gone. After speaking with other women, I found that they too had this urge, or desire. In fact, there was a lot of literature about it, and I learned that this urge/desire was considered to be a “biological urge” – an actual part of women’s biological instinct to have children. Ahh yes! It does make perfect sense that this desire, or urge would be part of the female programming – to ensure that the species furthers itself. Culture propagates this further, via media, and norms, and mores, etc. In fact, some argue that it is actually the culture that drives the urge, not biology. I don’t know which came first, just that that there is an urge, for many women, to have (more) children. And, like with any urge, it can be explored fully through inquiry.

 

It seems like all species are programmed to reproduce, but unlike squirrels, for example, human beings have the capacity to explore what comes into attention. I am not at the mercy of my biology, or my culture. We are not merely stimulus response creatures. I can question my thoughts, my beliefs, my wants, and my urges. I can explore all that comes with the urges in terms of thoughts, and images, and sensations and find that none of those things actually command me to reproduce, or do anything specifically. The ability to have self-awareness can be very useful. Can you imagine how many people would be on the planet if every woman who had the urge to have another child, followed through without question? That’s a lot of potential “who’s your daddy?” conversations to be had!

 

Most people can follow that it might be a good idea to question procreation urges, for a variety of reasons. But, how about using inquiry to explore sexual urges? Especially under particular circumstances, we don’t often bring these urges, or desires to the exploration of inquiry. Instead we unconsciously act, sometimes blaming hormones, or biological urges once again. For some, this leads to various forms of sexual addiction, including pornography, or engaging in unsafe/harmful/illegal behaviors. For others, it leads to unconscious activity or “empty experiences.”

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For all but the most self-aware, the conceptual “sexual sensation” can seem to be commanding or compelling something – action, climax, anxiety, pain, and so on. Until conceptual sensations are explored, stories and beliefs continue to be thought of as “true”. In the work that I do with people it’s common to be facilitating someone who is experiencing a lot of “sexual sensations”. In such cases, lots of thoughts and images are attached to the sensations, hence making them “sexual” sensations rather than just sensations. It can be very expansive to slowly and gently explore the thoughts and images and unpack the meaning that has been velcroed to the sensations. Doing so helps release the conceptual overlay placed on the sensations, and so the sensations have less influence over action. It also allows one to directly experience that a sensation that seems to have sexual overlays is never actually commanding a sexual action or behavior. Patterns involving unsafe/harmful/unfulfilling behaviors can then be loosened, greatly increasing the quality of life.

 

Once the sensations are examined, those same sensations which were laden with concepts, become just sensations. Through this exploration, one can find that there is no actual command to do/feel anything with regard to that sensation. This is good news, in the sense that we can discover that we are not at the mercy of hormones, and biological urges. Through mindful inquiry, one can experience being free to consciously explore, or not explore, ones sexuality. If you are interested in learning more about how embodied inquiry can lead you to a healthier and more fulfilling life, please contact me.

 

 

 

 

Embodiment Deepening Course!

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Why do I feel great while meditating, but awful while engaged in life? Why is living a struggle? Why is feeling a sensation so difficult? How can I make peace with the body? Why is it so easy to go “up and out” as opposed to “in and down”? Why am I experiencing such difficulty post-awakening? What does it mean to “be in the body”? Why is it so easy to be in “oneness” but I have such a hard time in life? Will this dark night of the soul ever end? What *is* this thing I keep hearing about- embodiment?
Embodiment (http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/05/embodiment-10-things-to-know-about-this-buzz-word-lisa-meuser/)
is about being fully in the present. In the Embodiment Deeping Course we’ll be journeying together to explore the above and many other questions. We’ll be taking an honest look at what is moving through this thing called life, and all the various ways our humanity shows up. We’ll be fully engaging with mind and body. We’ll be inquiring into all the thoughts, images, sensations—and taking a look at what seems true, and then experiencing what’s actually true. Particularly important, we’ll be spending a lot of time exploring the bodily sensations and energies that arise.This course will use the Living Inquiries and guided rest/practices to explore whatever your experiences are- depression, anxiety, compulsions, identification, body contractions, debilitating thoughts and/or memories and more. You will get to experience the different inquiries first hand, and be able to learn self-inquiry as well.As Scott Kiloby said recently “Are you ready to throw out all of the glamorizing of the future as a promised land and to really be here in the now in a way that is curious more than anything else? Just curious and open, not seeking to end being human, but opening into being even more human?”Let’s explore embodiment, in all its vastness! Contact Lisa for more information: llmeuser@me.com

What: An online Living Inquiries Deepening course with Senior Facilitator /Trainer Lisa Meuser

When:  January 10, 17, and 24— 1-3pm EST

Where: Zoom

Cost: $425  (Please contact me for other options)

Included: 3x two hour group Skype calls (you will get copies of the recordings). Six individual sessions: four with me and two with other Certified facilitators. A copy of Scott Kiloby’s ebook, Living Relationship. A private Facebook group for support and discussion. Email communication with me. Free attendance to the facilitated embodiment meditations that I host, and their audios. 

*Deepening courses are a pre-requisite for Living Inquiries facilitator training.  **If you have attended an embodiment deepening course before, feel free to join again. They are all unique!

For more information about me, visit my blog, where I write a lot about embodiment, or visit my website. 

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Surviving (and thriving!) throughout the Holiday Season!

A Deepening course led by Lynn Fraser and Lisa Meuser

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Holidays can feel like TOO MUCH! For many people the holidays in December are highly charged with too much travel, visitors or visiting, presents to buy, shortage of time, anxiety, food, sugar, alcohol, celebrating, family, money and over-stimulation of the senses. Add in pressure to feel jolly and be a big happy family and it’s no wonder we’re stressed.

We’ll explore ways to support ourselves and our families. Inquiry will include looking at words and images of how we think we should feel at this time of year and what these sensations, energies and feelings in the body seem to mean. We’ll cover practical strategies, positive self-care, guided inquiry, breathing and in-the-moment ways to calm down and be present.

Family issues could include the delicate negotiations around how time is allocated over the holidays with in-laws and blended families. There may be people we don’t want to see but feel we should or we may be missing people who have passed or can’t be with us. We may have a partner who isn’t accepted or welcomed or we may be estranged from our family of origin. Memories of fighting in prior years may create a sense of dread about this one. It might be the first time we’re away from home or the first holiday after a major change like divorce or death. Or we may love being around family but still feel stressed.

Many of us feel pressure around time and money. Routines of self-care may fall away due to travel, lack of time, disrupted sleep patterns or having company in the house. Our moods will be affected by sugar, food and alcohol and by recrimination and judgments around our behavior and that of others. The joy of the holidays can be lost in the pressure to create a certain type of experience or to feel a certain way.

This is fruitful ground for inquiry. There are some patterns we can change. Others may be more tolerable or enjoyable when we see through what it seems to mean, about ourselves or others.

Two hours of guided practice, discussion and support could make a real difference this year. We’ll hold two classes before Christmas and one just after the New Year. In every class we explore self-care through breathing and guided practices that calm and release triggers, allowing us to finally relax.

Group calls will be held Sundays December 14, 21 and January 4 at 1PM Eastern (New York). Let us know if you would like to come but those times don’t work.

We are offering two ways for you to participate:

Option A:

Three two-hour group classes Sundays December 14, 21 and January 4 at 1PM Eastern.

Four facilitations, two each with Senior Facilitator Trainers Lisa Meuser and Lynn Fraser

Two facilitations with Certified Living Inquiries facilitators

Complimentary admittance to a weekly online guided Natural Rest meditation

A pdf copy of Scott Kiloby’s Living Relationship book

Cost $425. This counts as a prerequisite for Living Inquiries facilitator training.

Option B:

Three two-hour group classes Sundays December 14, 21 and January 4 at 1PM Eastern (New York).

Cost from $99 depending on what you include. Private facilitations are available at a reduced rate. Please contact Lisa and Lynn at lynnandlisa2@gmail.com to discuss this and other payment options.

The Addictive Nature of Relationship

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When people think of addictions or compulsions they often think of overt things like alcohol, drugs, smoking, food, sex/porn, gambling, or various phobias. In fact, when I first began training to be a Living Inquiries facilitator, I didn’t consider myself to have any addictions, or compulsions. With a little looking, however, I uncovered what seemed like some subtle/insignificant compulsions. With a little more looking, I found that those subtle/insignificant compulsions were actually taking up quite a bit of my attention! I then coined a joke; I was actually too controlling of a person to even have those “big” addictions like alcohol or smoking, and that instead perhaps my life was made up of a series of compulsions- all designed to give me the illusion that I was in control of my life.

One compulsion I’ve been studying for nearly 6 months is the compulsion to be in intimate sexual relationship. My study began right as my husband and I decided to separate, and a new relationship started to form. In telling a wise friend and life mentor   about this new relationship, he said to me, “Please Stop.” Huh?!?!? I didn’t get it. “More please?” I replied. “It’s a drug,” he replied. “I really want you to get to know the you way beneath this.” Phew. I didn’t really know what he meant, but I could feel that he was onto something. That was when the study began, and when I started to realize that I was addicted to being in sexual relationship. There was a familial feel to it. Safety.

As the new relationship shifted back to friendship, I experienced a new sense of spaciousness that came from not having a partner to focus on as I had done for the previous 17 years. In this newly opened space came both immense pleasure, and pain. Debilitating thoughts and intense sensations arose that I labeled fear, and sadness. Using inquiry and embodied rest I journeyed through rotating stories and beliefs, many of them tied to childhood experiences that I had not yet unwound. Feeling utterly alone as a child was one of my biggest sources of trauma, around which I had built a lot of conditioning to protect myself from feeling. There was layer after of layer of feeling unsafe, unloved and simply unable to live without being in relationship for fear of being alone. The various awakenings experienced were no match for the conditioning and trauma that lived in the space of my body.

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I was raised believing that I needed a man to take care of me, and on subconscious levels I believed this, even though rationally speaking I would swear it’s absurd. All the studying of feminism, philosophy, and psychology in the world couldn’t have saved me from subconscious belief systems and biological programming which helped form various stories: needing relationship to prove sense of worth, to feel special, to be important, to be loved, to be safe. Being in a relationship distracted me from coming face to face with my various deficiency stories, and the life I created through intimate relationships kept me from fully diving into my ultimate fear of being alone. Nothing could have prepared me for the intense feelings of wanting to be held and touched, that almost seemed to command me to be in relationship or have sex. Over the last six months I’ve learned to hug myself, and love myself, and be with myself in deeper ways than I had ever imagined.

I have been sharing my journey over the last several months with many people, and have been met with much love and gratitude. It turns out that fear of being alone keeps many people’s compulsions and addictions quite alive! I’ve known this from the work I’ve done with clients. But I see even more how prevalent it is, in very subtle and often unnoticeable ways. I see how debilitating this fear is for people- keeping them from their dreams, and from living their lives fully. Some people I’ve talked to have never allowed themselves to admit their fears, even to themselves. In hearing my own story, they feel safe to be honest with their own stories[1], and in doing so open up to their buried hopes and dreams.[2]

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Thank goodness I have great friends who support my new monogamous, celibate, and committed relationship with myself. Thank goodness I have people to keep pointing out my subtle and overt patterning. Lastly, thank goodness for inquiry and embodied rest which has provided me with the space and tools to safety explore the depths of my emotions, beliefs/stories, and intense bodily sensations.

My journey of being committed to myself continues. Who knows how long it will last. For now, I am not pulled to enter into relationship, or commanded to not engage in relationship, which to me feels like a new level of freedom. Thank goodness for my friend’s words: “I really want you to get to know you way beneath this.” My journey continues as I’m still exploring and getting to know all the various aspects of me.[3]

 

 

 

 

[1] Everyone has their own journey. Safely inquiring into old trauma and conditioning can happen regardless of the circumstances, or content. Feel free to contact me to learn more about embodied rest or inquiry.

[2] Interestingly enough, fear of intimacy/fear of rejection issues can be on the other side of the same coin, particularly with people who have been single and never think they’ll find a partner. You might even hear them say, “Oh, I like being alone!”, as they’d rather be alone than face rejection/be vulnerable. But, that’s an issue for another blog post.

[3] If you’re interested in exploring your own addiction or compulsion, please contact me at llmeuser@me.com, or visit my web site or blog.

Creating Safety Together!— Deepening Course

Creating Safety Together
A Deepening course with a focus on healing trauma, led by Lynn Fraser and Lisa Meuser

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We need safety to heal trauma and there are many proven ways to support ourselves in the process. Some of us have experienced Developmental Trauma as children. This may have come from an acute incident or happened over a long period of time. This sets us up for being more vulnerable to PTSD as adults.

Our brain/nervous systems have one priority and that is survival. We will learn about common and understandable mechanisms of protection and why they arise.

Neuroception is the way we detect risk in our environment and it works differently in a traumatized brain. When anyone is triggered, their systemmoves into fight/flight/freeze. Some common ways for this to manifest are anxiety, numbing, anger and substance or process addiction.

We’ll learn how communication works between the brain, heart and gut. We will discover how to track this and to down-regulate the adrenal and sympathetic nervous system defensive response.

In every class we explore self-care through breathing and guided practices that calm and release fear, allowing us to finally relax.

Group calls will be held Saturdays November 15, 22 and 29. Time is flexible depending on time zones of participants. Please contact us to let us know your availability.

We are offering two ways for you to participate:

Option A:
Three two-hour group classes November 15, 22 and 29

Four facilitations, two each with Scott Kiloby Living Inquiries Senior Facilitator Trainers Lisa Meuser and Lynn Fraser

Two facilitations with Certified Living Inquiries facilitators

Complimentary admittance to a weekly online guided Natural Rest meditation

Cost $425. This counts as a prerequisite for Living Inquiries facilitator training.

Option B:
Three two-hour group classes November 15, 22 and 29

Cost from $99 depending on what you include. Private facilitations are available at a reduced rate. Please contact Lisa and Lynn at lynnandlisa2@gmail.com discuss this and other payment options.

The Body as a Friend

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When someone says that inquiry doesn’t “work”, I wonder what that means for them. In my reality-tunnel inquiry is simply asking. It’s not a prescribed way of asking- so it could be asking anything. Common inquiry pointers include: What am I paying attention to?, What is in my attention?, Do I want this moment to continue?, Who am I?, What’s here?, What’s this?, Who’s asking/feeling/paying attention/etc?, What’s the problem?, and so on.

Living inquiries facilitators inquire into what’s living/alive in the moment. I do this by looking into the thoughts arising in the guise of words/our internal dialogue, images/memories, or sensations/energy, and then asking questions. Taking the time to come into mindfulness, or rest as I often call it, and asking simple questions allows me to see the massive amounts of data that is already here, which is giving shape to my experiences. Being able to have attention on the words allows me to see the belief systems and assertions that I often live by, as well as how they are linked to pictures/memories and different sensations in the body. Inquiring into them allows me to experience that they are not me, per se, nor are they threats or commands (making us do certain things or engage in compulsions/addictive behavior).

Due to our culture’s preoccupation with mental processing, feelings and sensations are largely downplayed, avoided, or denied. This discounting of the bodily experiences demonizes emotions and sensations in such a way that I am moved to try to do just about anything other than feel/be with them. As I am able to watch and feel the data come in as thoughts, I experience that it is not determining who I actually am or connected to my safety. Moving inward into bodily sensations becomes easier, and even welcomed. As I slowly acclimate myself to this space, and experience first hand that the body is not a foe, but instead a friend, the mental gymnastics becomes less appealing, and meeting the experience as it is becomes more possible.

I still find myself in mental gymnastics sometimes – trying to figure out, understand, strategize, etc; but, now there’s often a very different feel to that engagement. Instead of feeling like mental configuring is the safe route to go, it often feels burdensome and full of effort. Not long ago I was speaking to a friend about something that was worrying me. As I was telling her what was going on, I was aware of the thoughts and stories coming out of my mouth. After awhile it became too much work to put words to it and I told her I just wanted to feel what was up for me rather than talk about it. I jumped into the feeling of worry. As I jumped into that rabbit hole I had a huge wave of emotion come in, which spontaneously shifted to laughter. Utter despair shifted to joy in the course of about 10-20 seconds. This was really fun for me, to experience such a wide range of data in such a short period of time (who needs to go to an amusement park when there’s one right here!?!?!). It was also cool because, in the past, I’d get lost in the content that was linked to the emotions/sensations, and I’d be in that wave for quite a long time. Of course, there is nothing wrong with that either.

It seems to me that befriending my body, and getting to know it intimately, allows vast amount of data to come in and out of my attention without me getting stuck. The more familiar I become with the space of the body, and the vast amounts of sensations in it, the more the body serves as a home I can rest in, at any time. As such, I find myself less drawn to engaging in the mind in hopes of finding safety (which it doesn’t provide, by the way) because safety is already here. [1]

If you’d like to experience your body as more of a friend then foe, please consider attending one of the embodied meditations I facilitate, purchase a recording of past meditations, contact me for a private session, or sign up for my embodiment deepening course (one starts in a week)!

 

 

[1] This is not to say that the body is actual “home.” . Because the body and sensations are largely considered less then desirable, bad, to be avoided, etc, I find it a useful distinction to refer to the body as home, for practical purposes. In the broader scope of things, thoughts, images or sensations/the body are neither home, nor not home, they are just mechanisms of the human form. The grokking of that is a coming home in and of itself. After this grokking, they all can be thought of as “home” in the sense that it is seen that none of them are.

The Play of Curiosity

As promised, here is the next blog post in this series! Enjoy.

 

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I’ve been using something very basic to my existence, in journeying with myself and with clients[1]. It’s something that never goes away, regardless of what I’m thinking about or how I’m feeling. It happens when I’m sleeping, or while awake, and when I’m eating. In fact, it happens 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and 365 days a year. Simply stated, if I’m alive, it’s happening. It could be any number of things, but maybe you’ve guessed what I have in mind: Breathing.

 

Yeah, that’s it. It’s no big deal. Except that it is, because inside breath is a mysterious land. Visiting this land is worth your time, because it can lead to curiosity, wonderment, and magic. In going into such places, the world can become that much more playful, and who doesn’t enjoy a little more play?!

 

There are many ways to connect with curiosity, but I like to use breath as a vehicle. I like putting attention on breath, because in doing so it automatically connects me into my body, which is an even vaster playground. So to begin with, bring some attention just to the actual act of breathing. Notice how the body does this movement every day, all day, without being reminded; it’s kind of taken for granted, in many ways. It’s doing it right now! Your body is literally being breathed, as you read these words. Don’t take my word for it, stop reading and check it out! Breathing is pretty much taken care of, at some very base level, so give yourself a chance to revel in that, to really take it in.

 

As you connect with how the body is taken care of in this way, notice how that feels. Are there any signs of playfulness? Any curiosity? Or some lightness in this exploration and consideration? If not, that’s fine. Not everyone is going to find breathing interesting, or curious. If you can’t find any curiosity in breathing, can you find it anywhere? Do a search of your life- a rainbow? Your child’s smile? The scent of a flower, the feeling of the sun on your skin? If you can feel even a slight twinge of mystery and curiosity, continue to play with me. cropped-IMG_2913.jpg

 

Stay with the curiosity that you noticed, and hold that in your attention. We’re about to do a study on breathing! It’s like we’re in science class to do an experiment, only you are the subject and the observer! All you need to do is close your eyes, and with that curiosity that you pinpointed earlier, bring your attention to your nostrils. Then, as breath comes in and out of your nostrils, notice your nose hairs. YES! Your nose hairs! I don’t know when the last time you noticed your nose hairs was, but for me it’s always a great source of entertainment. Maybe it’s just me, but nose hairs evoke a very distinct sensation for me as air passes through the nostrils. Tune right into that, with your curiosity. Do a little study on what that is like. You don’t have to stay there too long… stay there as long as you like. Next bring attention and curiosity into the throat, for as long as you’d like. And then bring the study of attention to the chest area.

 

There is a whole lot of playground surface area in the chest! As the breathing continues to happen, which it always does, bring your attention right to that chest area. You might feel all sorts of sensations, and the mind might want to butt in with commentary and labels and judgments about all sorts of things. No worries. Notice those thoughts, and then bring the attention right back into breathing, noticing as the chest moves with each breath. For added experimentation, put a hand on the chest, and notice what that sensation is like. Watch and feel as the hand moves, all by itself, with the breathing. Remember that this is for science! So keep your curiosity hat on, as you connect with the hand, the chest, and breathing. You might notice temperatures, constrictions, openings, pleasant feelings, negative feelings, emotions, and so on. All of those things are welcome here. Just like in an unbiased science study, whatever shows up is absolutely perfect! There are no problems in this study, just data to notice and the experience of breathing to pay attention to.

 

The next part of the study will take place in the belly region. You can keep one hand on the chest and the other on the lower belly, or just have one hand on the lower belly. As breathing continues to happen (as it always does), feel the hand on the belly move as breathing happens. Continue this experiment, noticing thoughts and different sensations coming in, maybe images too. Letting them all be there as best you can, keep bringing your attention back to the breathing, and back to the hand. Take some time to keep all your focus on the simple movements of breathing and the hand rising and falling. Stick with that for as long as you’re able to.

 

From here, the options are fully available to you. You can notice how breathing influences other body areas or other sensations: maybe the shoulders, or the hips, the face, the mouth, the legs, your knee caps, and so on. The body is a vast playground, and it is limitless as far as opportunities for play and experimentation of attention.

 

You can end your experiment here, or you can take it to new levels: Open your eyes, still connecting to the curiosity and playfulness. Look around your room, extending that same curiosity. If you notice stressful sensations come into the body, and the curiosity fade, feel free to close your eyes to reconnect with the curiosity. Take your time. When you’re curious, open your eyes again, and take another look around. If you’re having situations or thoughts come into your mind, stay connected to the curiosity as best you can, extending it to your thoughts. Notice the levels of curiosity, knowing that at any moment you can close your eyes, and reconnect with a hand on the chest or belly, as the body breathes.

 

The body is your playground. Use breath and curiosity to explore and play. There are no right or wrong ways to do it. Experiment in any way you care to. You can do this any time: the first thing you do when you wake up, before you go to sleep, when you are starting to feel anxious, depressed, or when you’re wanting to engage in a compulsive or addictive activity. Utilize this play of curiosity and see what you notice. Please let me know what it’s like for you, and how your study goes- I’d love to hear about your experiences[2]!

 

[1] Join me September 28th for the next embodied mediation https://www.facebook.com/events/700975529972645/?fref=ts or http://www.integrativehealingnow.com/events.html

[2] I have many guided meditations for sale which employ the use of curious exploration. For more information, please email me at llmeuser@me.com. I also facilitate 50-60 minute embodied meditations on skype 2 scheduled times a month, plus spontaneous/unplanned facilitations. Please email me if you’d like to be notified of spontaneous meditations. For the current schedule, please visit here: http://integrativehealingnow.com/events.html

The playground of senseless magic

I watched/felt a wave of sensations arise this morning. I observed the mind try to give meaning to this wave- X content/story, then Y content. None of the content stuck, and I kept coming back to the sensations, inviting them all to be there – receiving them all, not even knowing what that meant. The wave came, with all that it carried, and it left, with all that it carried. I didn’t need to understand or rationalize any of it. When this happens I get to experience myself as a human being, who experiences sensations, who doesn’t need to understand or figure out any of it. The result is that I am not dragged down into the depths of drama and deficiency stories. There is ease, curiosity, and a gentleness that does not have the usual violence that is often coupled with fantastical story telling. Labels and stories are often put upon sensations as a way to distract myself from feeling them. The stories and labels, when believed, make the sensations a problem – something to get rid of. The mind has something to sink its teeth into, and off I go, into drama/deficiency. When I feel them without the stories, there is just energy. IMG_3681I Without deferring to content/stories, meaning making isn’t needed or useful. Without delegating to content, rationality loses its importance. Sensations and feelings loose their bad boy reputations, and I can stop trying to hide from them, avoid them, or pretend they aren’t there. I can rest in the land of senseless magic, where all is accepted and control is irrelevant.

For those interested in exploring the land of senseless magic, two events are coming up with might interest you. (1) This coming Sunday at 10am EST I will be facilitating an hour of rest in the REST Room on skype. For $10, you’ll be guided through an embodied meditation. Sign up here!  (2) In mid October (and then again in November) I will be offering an Embodiment Deepening Course. Please email me at llmeuser@me.com with any questions. Coming soon will be the next installment of my blog series life as an experiment. Last week I wrote about agendas, and next week I will be posting about the play of curiosity. Look for it!

Embodiment Deepening Course!

Why do I feel great while meditating, but awful while engaged in life? Why is living a struggle? Why is feeling a sensation so difficult? How can I make peace with the body? Why is it so easy to go “up and out” as opposed to “in and down”? Why am I experiencing such difficulty post-awakening? What does it mean to “be in the body”? Why is it so easy to be in “oneness” but I have such a hard time in life? What is this thing I keep hearing about- embodiment?

Embodiment is about being in this body, fully, in the present. In the Embodiment Deeping Course we’ll be journeying together to explore those and other questions. We’ll be taking an honest look at what is moving through this thing called life, in that which you’re housed in—the body. We’ll be engaging with it, and in it. We’ll be inquiring into all the thoughts, images, sensations—and taking a look at what seems true, and then experiencing what’s actually true. Particularly important, we’ll be spending a lot of time exploring the bodily sensations and energies that arise.

This course will use the Living Inquiries and guided rest/practices to explore whatever your experiences are- depression, anxiety, compulsions, identification, body contractions, debilitating thoughts and/or memories and more. You will get to experience the different inquiries first hand, and be able to learn self-inquiry as well.

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As Scott Kiloby said recently “Are you ready to throw out all of the glamorizing of the future as a promised land and to really be here in the now in a way that is curious more than anything else? Just curious and open, not seeking to end being human, but opening into being even more human (bold mine)?”

Let’s explore embodiment, in all its vastness! Contact Lisa for more information: llmeuser@me.com

What: An online Living Inquiries Deepening course with Senior Facilitator /Trainer Lisa Meuser

When:  November 2, 9, and 16: Sundays 7-9 pm EST.

(If you cannot make the dates or times, please let me know and we’ll try to work something out.)

Where: Skype

Cost: $425

Included: 3x two hour group skype calls. Six individual sessions: four with me and two with other Certified facilitators. A copy of Scott Kiloby’s ebook, Living Relationship. A private Facebook group for support and discussion. Email communication with me.

*Deepening courses are a pre-requisite for Living Inquiries facilitator training.

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The buzz-kill of an agenda: how agendas can short-circuit your journey.

As stated in my last blog post, I am doing a series of blog posts that point to and illustrate how life, and everything in it, is an experiment. What follows is experiment number one. Enjoy!

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It’s a common experience to have agendas propelling certain actions. It’s useful to be aware of our agendas, because they can flavor the activity. The activity may become less enjoyable, for example, if there is a narrowly focused agenda, versus something more fluid. My agenda in exercising might be to lose weight. If I exercise only because of the agenda to loose weight, exercise may start to be less enjoyable. If I have a few agendas, or a broader agenda, such as to get outside, breath fresh air, explore the neighborhood, see the flowers, as well as loose weight, exercise may be experienced as more pleasant.

In short, our perceptions and thus our experiences are directly tied to our agendas.

With regard to inquiry or meditation[1], the agenda I bring to these activities will also flavor the experience. If I bring curiosity as my agenda, the experience will be quite different then if my agenda is of a more solid type. Some solid agendas may include: to fix a problem, feel better, be happy, get enlightened, feel at peace, and so on. Think of it this way: when you go to a new ice cream place with genuine curiosity the experience will be quite different than going to one with a set agenda. The agendas of, “I wonder what the ice cream is like here?, or “I wonder what the experience of tasting this ice cream will be like?” has a much different flavor (pardon the pun) than, “I want this ice cream to taste better than the last ice cream I ate”, or “ I want to get relief from eating this ice cream.” When you want something solid and specific from a restaurant, how you view the experience, and partake in it, is automatically going to influence your perception.

My experience is that when I approach something with curiosity, the solidity of whatever I’m experiencing starts to fall apart, all on it’s own. Where as if I sternly approach something, it stays solid, it can’t move- it can’t be any different because I’m bringing solidity to it to start with.

Which brings me back to the experience of inquiry and meditation. Try this out for yourself as experiment number one: come to inquiry with a specific agenda and see what happens. Then come to inquiry from a curious place, fully meeting the experience (thoughts, images and sensations) as they are. And see what that’s like[2].

This can extend to any experience, and any experiment that you are trying out in your life. If you are adding new things to your life, add to the experiment the curiosity factor. See what you notice when you have a curious agenda, versus when you have a more solid agenda. Please feel free to share your findings!

The third part of this series will be posted in about a week. I will present experiment number two, which focuses on breath, meditation, and curiosity. Stay tuned!

 

 

 

[1] I have a guided meditation for sale which employs the use of curious exploration. For more information, please email me at llmeuser@me.com

[2] For what it’s worth, this isn’t always easy. The job of the facilitator is to help loosen the solidity that is often brought to a session by a client. So, if you find that this is particularly challenging, shoot me an email at llmeuser@me.com and we’ll chat.