New Year’s Clarity
I’m not a big fan of New Year’s resolutions, but I do enjoy New Year’s clarity.
New Year’s clarity?
At the start of a year, I often connect with a word, a phrase, or an intention that is calling out for me to find clarity with. Hidden gifts always await as the the word, phrase, or intention weaves its way through my being.
In 2019 I knew it was time for me to be more *in* the world, while not getting lost in it, as has always been my patterning. My intention for the year became “being in the world *and* being of Love.” This was a radical change for me in that in the years prior I had been focusing on my clients and my personal life.
My intention for the year became Being in the world and Being of Love.
Since jumping out of that bubble, I have participated more fully than ever as a waking being, in an unwoken world, and it has been one of the most rewarding and learning endeavors of my life. It revealed internal territory I hadn’t worked through, as well as a depth of agency and resourcing that I hadn’t realized was waiting within me to embody.
I have yet to name where clarity of focus will land for 2020, but my journey of 2019 helped me to stay turned towards some vital questions that I’m sure will help. It is powerful, and necessary, for me to connect with what truly aligns in my being, in whatever it is that I’m doing – on a day to day, moment by moment, basis. While getting honest with myself has not always been easy, it is now central to my well-being. As such, connecting to these questions has been immensely profound:
- Are the activities of my life in simple alignment?
- If not, why am I engaged with them?
- If not, do I need to step away from them, or
- How might I bring more of me into these areas so that I feel an alignment with what is important to me?
A year of increased integrity, a year with more alignment, a year of discovery and deep learning all came as I continued to keep asking myself these simple questions. Throughout the course of the year, these questions became living embodiments. Did I stumble along the way? Absolutely. Were there challenges? Yes! Through difficult times these questions helped me to return to what was important for me, over and over again.
Without even trying, I noticed that the various aspects of my life were aligning synchronistically with one another as I journeyed with being in the world and being of Love. Acknowledging my hidden racism; deepened clarity of living from Love first; moving from head wisdom to embodied wisdom of Love; an amazing conscious leadership training that helped me further awaken to ancestral wisdom and the healing power of our stories; conscious social justice engagement in my community; a weekend of discovering 5 Rhythms; a powerful Heal Thyself Diversity Training; continued explorations into unwinding the dominant narrative that is perpetuated by culture, and lives in all our psyches; and lastly, the paradoxical co-existence of fear, hope and dreams.
Although being in the world and being of Love will no doubt be a life long journey these questions helped me get more deeply resourced clarity again and again. When I wanted to give up, when I doubted, when I didn’t know how, I gently and compassionately returned to these simple yet wise inquiries. And of course I got help from my support team, who help me to journey into my hidden areas.
These questions – and many others(!) – will continue to burn alive in my being as I move into the unknown of 2020. I look forward to further deepening, creating, and relating with, and to, Life and Love.
What about you? What draws you into conscious participation with 2020? May you find some clarity, and let it be so!