When people think of addictions or compulsions they often think of overt things like alcohol, drugs, smoking, food, sex/porn, gambling, or various phobias. In fact, when I first began training to be a Living Inquiries facilitator, I didn’t consider myself to have any addictions, or compulsions. With a little looking, however, I uncovered what seemed like some subtle/insignificant compulsions. With a little more looking, I found that those subtle/insignificant compulsions were actually taking up quite a bit of my attention!
I watched/felt a wave of sensations arise this morning. I observed the mind try to give meaning to this wave- X content/story, then Y content. None of the content stuck, and I kept coming back to the sensations, inviting them all to be there – receiving them all, not even knowing what that meant. The wave came, with all that it carried, and it left, with all that it carried. I didn’t need to understand or rationalize any of it. When this happens I get to experience myself as a human being, who experiences sensations, who doesn’t need to understand or figure out any of it.