I forgot that I mattered
I forgot that I mattered.
It was trained
out of me.
Soap
in my mouth.
*
I forgot that I mattered.
I was Jill
in Jack’s box
playing hide and seek
with my spark.
*
I forgot that I mattered.
Harsh words
blank stares
looked past tears
and a scared girl.
*
I forgot that I mattered.
Submission
a safety zone.
Pretense
filled the basket.
*
I forgot that I mattered.
My voice
disappeared
my body played
dead.
*
I forgot that I mattered.
So I let
you forget,
and you did.
My silence for your pleasure.
*
Until, through divine intervention
I found that I mattered.
Hoax revealed, my spark
demanded play.
I’m ready! she called.
Me too, I replied. And we did.